i'd rather have you here

it has been a long year. wait maybe two years. it is good
to get this. its good to get in it, and be able to really talk to me.
wait was that what i was thinking or doing then and now this.
yes

I am almost caught up with my dvr, i didn't watch tv
for nearly a month, cramming all the shows i like so much.

and then to bigger and brighter,
uhauling.
dreaming of traveling south.
dreaming of detox times.
dreaming of gyming it

really i am sick of dreaming anymore, its done.
dreaming just seems more fitting since in the past 42 hours Ive had about
4.5 hours sleep...

all worth it.

"This might make you throw up in your bed:
I'M OK BY MYSELF!"